I am nonexistent
I wonder if I ever will exist
I hear the people that do exist
I see them go about their day
I want to change
I am nonexistent

I pretend I am someone else
I feel what they are feeling
I touch their face
I worry about being nonexistent again
I cry when I have to leave
I am nonexistent

I understand I will not be someone else
I say nothing
I dream of cowboys
I try to be existent
I hope I am not a waste
I am nonexistent