I'm Not Suppose To

I not suppose to hate you
We were close friends
Last I knew, I didn't hate friends
Or maybe we were never that close
Maybe I was just someone you saw
Who still had hope inside them
And you just couldn't bear that
Envy took control
And used you as tool to strike me down
But I'm still here
Hope and life has life me
Giving me a greater and more powerful weapon
I have nothing to lose
I can bear the inflicted pain as I have before
You can't kill me, I've already died
But I can get at you instead
I'll bet you never thought of that
I just needed someone to talk to
You were just too busy with yourself
I'm not suppose to hate you
And I blame you that I do.