Not Together

I sometimes call you
    And we have those "meaningful silences"
I called you when you weren't at school
I wanted to make sure you were okay
We weren't together, we weren't apart
You were only sick
Still, I'm glad I called you
After a war with my conscience
But I'm sorry I get so tongue tied
Honestly, today I really tried
I should take your advice
Say what you want to say
Or I start thinking too much again
    And I hurt myself again
Not "together" as people speculate
Hell broke loose between us long ago
But something good followed in its wake
I trust you where I trust no one
    Yet...I fear...
When I'm sick, you won't call me.