Vanished-12.10.01

I've made a decision
To change things a bit
Feeling...
    ashamed...
    repulsive...
    doomed to be spent.
To repeat one's self
I rack my brain frantically...
Commitment phobic?
Nearly screaming?
State of emergency?
Rise from a wildfire
        Phoenix-like
Yelling, collapse, rest.
    Envy
Merely brief and fleeting
  Vanished